Update

by Jessica Lam March 05, 2021 3 min read

Update

Hello old friends!
It has been too long. This is probably going to end up being long and I’m sorry in advance. I’m going to be totally honest with you (and myself finally too). I’ve never said any of these words out loud so please be kind. ♥️♥️

✨Note: If you want to skip to the point or you don’t have time to read, just read the graphic instead. I summed it up there!✨

I miss creating new things at Green & Lyme but the break has been good for my heart.

After a devastating period of heartbreak after heartbreak, I desperately tried to begin healing myself and my family too. We went through quite a bit personally and then of course we all know that led into a global pandemic of all things. Wtf right????

During this time I’ve really struggled to find my way back to work fully. I have been fulfilling orders as they come but I haven’t sent a single email or even made posts on social media in a very looooong time.

With everything happening I seemed to have lost my way. As grateful as I am for it, I also began to realize my business grew bigger than I really wanted it to be. I found myself spending 3/4 of my working hours doing the necessary business things and only maybe 1/4 of my time (or less) actually creating. I’m not a marketer. I’m not into sales. I just want to make pretty things. I want to share my pretty things and I want to inspire people to create and find their own passions too. This realization coupled with everything else really made my heart heavy with dread.

My family and I are doing well now but I still can’t seem to find my way back to work fully. When I make time to work my mind is blank. There are no ideas. I think all the feelings of the past couple years have become intertwined with my work. When I try to get back to things all the raw emotions flood back in. I’m sure it’s the lingering grief that I’m still working through.

In the past, it was during heartbreak and difficult times that I found myself to be the most creative. I would dive into a project and find peace and healing. This time has been different though.

Much like writer’s block, I stare at my notebook and have no idea where to start. So instead of fighting it I decided to step back and recharge.

I absolutely love G&L and everything I have worked so hard to create. It’s been an incredible journey. I’ve met some of my best friends and I have grown as a person. I never dreamed it would grow so fast. I also never dreamed I would be saying any of this right now.

I don’t feel I am finished with Green & Lyme. I do think this break is good for my heart though. At this point I think I will be back in the future. For now though, I’ve been finding my creativity in a new hobby. It’s been incredible to learn a new skill and be inspired to create again. Little by little I’m started to find pieces of myself again and I love that!! It’s been so nice to create in a completely new and different medium and without any pressure at all.

If by chance you’d like to connect with me on Instagram more or you are into embroidery as well, you can find me at my personal account here: @stitchystitchy (http://www.Instagram.com/StitchyStitchy)

I do hope to return to Green & Lyme and create more products in the future. I hope to find my spark of creativity again through my embroidery art and find my way back again.

I continue to keep Green & Lyme inventory stocked the best I can and ship orders as they come while enjoying this new hobby that seems to be distracting me from all the problems in the real world.

I hope you are doing well and I’d love to hear from you. Please feel free to comment below if you’d like to chat more or DM me on Instagram. Please don’t send private messages through FB. I have a hard time keeping up with them since they all go to some random impossible-to-find folder. I truly miss all of you. Thank you for being so patient and understanding while I navigate through this challenging time. ♥️♥️

Jessica Lam
Jessica Lam



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